So sitting here reflecting on things. Realized that I have always made it a point in my life to not get excited about things in life until you are there, have it in your hands, or whatever the case may be. I have learned in life that things never go as planned and something always comes up to change what you expected. Now knowing that I understand why things came about the way they did…I was excited about my relationship…I was excited about the woman I was with…I was excited about proposing and getting married…I was excited about experiencing life with her…I was excited about growing old with her…I was excited about spending the rest of our lives together…I was excited about being with her and only her…thats where I fucked up. I should have just enjoyed it when it was there instead of getting excited about the future. Something came up that changed what I expected…something didn’t go as planned…and now I have her no more… My Life….My Luck….  :(